Riding the Roller Coaster

The excitement and thrill of a roller coaster is like no other. The anticipation as you go clicking your way up to the top and then that weightless, gut dropping, heart stopping feeling when you finally creep over the top. The view from the top is awe inspiring. The wind is whirling all around you and you feel free. It is the ultimate adrenaline rush for me. Unfortunately, I ride a roller coaster every day but it is not nearly as fun or exciting for me or my family. After weighing myself on Monday I was terribly depressed. Should I have been? Probably, ok, absolutely not. Yes, I gained 2 whole pounds, but, I also ate things I shouldn't have and drank diet sodas that I knew I should be avoiding. It is highly likely that I gained water weight, and I knew this. Even with that knowledge I still let myself get completely down in the dumps after riding the high and the thrill through the weekend from the weight loss of the week prior. Needless to say, my husband has had enough. The scale mysteriously disappeared from the bathroom Monday evening only to return next Monday I was told. My first thought was of course, embarrassment. How silly of me to have allowed my emotions to control me so completely. They controlled me to the point that I was miserable to be around and no fun to anyone in the house. Everything was in disarray around me as I lied in bed sulking. I am sure anger was somewhere in there but who was I angry with? My husband for trying to encourage me and help me get to my goal? Or was I angry with myself for getting on the ride in the first place?

Yesterday was a much better day. I didn't exercise but I did stay under my calories for the day, even with the binge eating of the remainder of the banana pudding squares. Hey, at least I got my calcium and fruit! (They were low fat and low sugar lol). I felt terrible afterwards of course. But, I did not let that get me down. I had a protein shake and a salad for dinner to keep me on course. There were even calories to spare! So, at 11 last night while I was on the computer I let myself have a few low fat cookies and skim milk.

I suppose I will start today off on a better foot. I managed to get up before the kids left for school and the little one is asleep next to me. Now would be a good time to get up, get dressed and head outside for some gardening. Surely some fresh air will get my spirits up as I ride the roller coaster again, click, click, click, climbing my way to the top, waiting for Monday. I just hope it is a fun ride down and not a twisting knot!

My coffee is gone, and so am I!


OK, so I was going through my email and what do I find? An email from South Beach Diet and this is what it says:

Don't be discouraged if your weight fluctuates day by day. Shifts in water weight, changes in bowel habits, and even the amount of food you just ate can influence the daily variations you see on the scale.

HA HA...it's like they read my mind....